2.5

talked to momand dad wednesday. dad's cancer marker is down to 2.5. he's real close to the 2 the doctor wants. he'l be off the chemo for the next two weeks.
he's supposed to have several tests done the week after thanksgiving to see where the cancer is at this point and to see how it's regressed or if it appears anywhere else in his body. he'll have x-rays of his chest, lungs and torso.

he sounded ok, especially after sunday's conversation.he sounded off then. he really wasn't paying attention to me and wouldn't answer questions. he'd slip into another conversation. i thought i was talking to my grandfather, since he is hard of hearing. i worry about him when it comes to those things, besides the cancer. he wasn't like this before. so i dunno.

when i talked to him wednesday, he was on his way to the ranch to check on something. tht's another worry. he's not even 100 percent. so i have concerns and visualize him fallen and unable to get up or hurt by a cow. but i guess it's better he go and have some semblance of what he loves to do. he feels like he's not a man, no worth. he's so used to working out in the ranch and keeping active that this has been so hard on him. i feel bad for him. being kept from doing what you like sucks. no other eloquent way to put it.

so i hope the tests reveal positive info. i'd like for him to get off the chemo and move on. plus, he really wants to spend thanksgiving at uncle rene's house. i'd like that. he needs to be with his brothers and sisters, especially after uncle gocha's death. i think it'll do him so much good.