chemo again

i talked to my dad yesterday. he'd visited the doctor the day before to get the word on what is next with him.

it was determined he still had a tumor, a big one in his liver. the doctor wanted to see if it was possible to go in and burn it with some type of needle.

he consulted with other doctors and they said they wouldn't do it because the tumor was too close to his heart (on the upper dome of the liver). so that option was out.

the doctor told my dad he'd have to start chemo again. he starts monday.

in addition,my dad told the doctor he was feeling some pain in his upper torso area. the doctor said it was probably the tumor growing. so he gave my dad some pills (three in the morning and three in the evening) to get the tumore from growing.

apparently the tumor is also located in an area where blood flow isn't that great. the doctor thought that perhaps one of the reasons why that particular tumor didn't shrink is due to its location. another suggestion, then, is shooting some chemo right into the tumor and attacking it that way. we're still waiting for that option.

so looks like it's back to the chemo for my dad. i had gotten used to him not being on it. it was a nice few months and i really enjoyed that, especially after him being on the chemo fsince august.

he said he's mentally ready for it. he even asked if it was possible to continue feeding the cows hay bales. the doc. said he could as long as he wears a mask to prevent any of the dust from entering his nose or mouth.

i guess i have mixed feelings about my dad going back on chemo. as i said he looked so well off of it. but if he's begining to feel the pain and that one persistent tumor is growing, i suppose it'd for the best. i only want what's best for him and what makes him happy. if this is the route he wants, then i'm there. also, if there's a chance to knock this tumor down with some direct chemo, then i say do it.

here's wishing for the best.